Every one of us have had that moment in the dark and on the couch enveloped by memories of brotherhood, adrenaline and horror.  If we don't make the choice to start replacing those memories with positive action and then get up and get out...we will go under.  It is a matter of time.  Our loved ones deserve more valor than that.  You have more valor than that.  We know its likely you really don't care if you survive this stage of your life, but others do.  We didn’t at one point.  But, you have made a military career of doing right for others. Those others that need you now are the very ones that waited, prayed, cried in their pillows, made signs and you say you love.  They look up to you for leadership and protection.  You are their hero.  Now protect them by taking the first steps to find brothers and sisters who have been where you are and can lead you through this new minefield called life after sacrifice.